Friday, March 5, 2010

Patience

The virtuous stuff  that makes you patient, the stuff that sloshes around some place in our brains, waiting fluid, or whatever it's called, has been all but   neutralized by adrenaline within me. I hate to wait. I've been that way since I was a kid and life for me has been a series of speeding from one event to the next and having to anxiously wait at each stop anticipating when I could move on. I don't know why I'm wired that way. It really isn't much fun. I'm sure that life would be better if I'd take the time to slow and smell something. I don't want to. I'd rather move along and take the smells with me. I've grown better though as I've aged but my wife must continually tell me that we're not in a hurry.

I've been fortunate that I haven't been ticketed much for speeding. I usually drive over the limit wherever I go. However, I'm invariably slowed by something in the way. More often than I like, I get behind a school bus, truck or someone who doesn't care about my self-imposed life schedule. Traveling down the highway, staring at a semi's rear wall of sheet metal is such a joy and, if traffic is slow in my lane, I'll switch to find the new lane slowing and watching cars I was behind pass me. I must wait, until life lets me by.

The supermarket is no exception. I'll get in the shortest line and someone ahead will cause a delay as  other lines move on efficiently. I remember once I thought I was lucky and found a lady in the express lane with no one behind her. I stepped up to her just as the cashier anounced the purchase sum. I'd be on my way in just a few minutes. The woman pulled out a coin purse and proceeded to pay in change. As she  counted, each click of a coin against the counter pierced my ears and seconds slowed to match her pace. I was watching grass grow. It took forever. I've decided that whatever line I get in, no matter where, my presence will slow it. Fast food is for others. I must be cursed and I'm certain Providence is behind it all. Too bad I'm a slow learner.

We met the lady I've drawn in a small gallery in Hailsham, England. She was chatting with the proprietor and having tea. I was immediately struck by her bright blue eyes. Her blue tweed coat and beret seemed to make them glow. I asked if I could take her photo. She obliged and posed as you see her. Her name was Anne.
A delightful gal who we learned,  bicycled all over France in her youth. I'm sure she turned some heads and got a few jealous looks. She talked and talked, and talked some more until time started to warp. I had to get on to the next unknown event. We finally pulled away as her words clung to us and continued our meandering through the town. We saw her later, crossing a mall court to a shop. I'd have hated to stand in line behind her. She probably carried alot of coins.

7 comments:

Brenda's Arizona said...

Your writing is so spot-on. Shortest line = longest wait. Anywhere. Do you think that at one time Anne was like you?
I love your portraits. I grab anyone/everyone nearby to have a look. Thanks!

Pierre said...

Brenda,
You must have some English blood in you. "Spot-on" is a very British saying.

I don't know if Anne was like me. I wouldn't wish my impatience on anyone.

Thanks for your appreciation.

Banjo52 said...

Pierre, as often as I've enjoyed your comments at A.Hiker, I can't believe I haven't visited your blog and your excellent sketches. This one of Anne is my favorite so far.

Did you see the drawing that Ken Mac photographed about a week ago-- the girl with the purse between her knees (that's all I'll say here)? In their very, very different ways, she and your Anne seem to exude character for me. Surely there's no forumula for how to capture that.

I have an engineer friend, and he too is impatient. Must be something in the water over there in the engineering departments . . .

Banjo52 said...

Make that the Feb. 24 post at Greenwich Daily Photo.

Pierre said...

Banjo,
Thank you for your kind remarks.
I stopped by your blog today for the first time and discovered much thought provoking reading. You also have a great eye for photos. I skimmed through and ironicaly landed on Tennyson's Ulysses. I understand the need to go forward.

Yes I saw the photo you referenced. I like it very much. It's extremely well done and pulls me in. It grabs me in ways I can't explain, but NOT for the obvious reasons. Your comparison with "Anne" is a nice compliment.
Thanks again.

Anonymous said...

Yes, I'm a jump out of the skin person as well. Not that I can't completely vegetate, but it has to be my decision and it can't be in the line at the drugstore behind a poor old soul counting out dimes to pay for the Hallmark card no one will read anyway.

I'm trying to work on that. Your drawing is lovely.

WV: Wimsy. I think we impatient people could do with more whimsy.

Pierre said...

I seriously burned out in my career so I had to slow down for health reasons. I don't like forced vegetation. I'm easily bored.